B's Bitchin Bullshit

Short and sweet.

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 07:59:48 GMT

Love love love love love my job, love superbad, McLovin is the best thing since sliced bread, wanting to see someone right now :), Family Guy, my laptop, my friends, my life. I'm really feeling blessed right now. I'll post more later but yeah had to post haha

So fucking bleak...

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 00:39:23 GMT

So circumstances beyond my control, me, and a few others are being forced out of our amazing apartment... A certain someone took our rent money and spent it and was not able to fix the problem. So now we all have to be out by the first because of her. I just don't know what to think right now... I had the greatest home. I came home to that place everyday excited because work was over and it was just gonna be another great night. It didn't matter what was giving people trouble we still were able to have a good night. Those people became my family. Now they are just friends again, all having to go back to where they started. We all did our part by paying our bills and keeping everything together and it's all ruined by one person because they decided that being responsible was just too much work. I had to go back to my parents house... usually I wouldn't have minded that, NO BILLS... but I feel like I'm being forced out of my home and to go live with a family that has developed a different relationship with eachother in my absence. I no longer have the urge to call this place home... Man this is so hard I just feel like withering away. I was riding to my parents house and I was going like 10 miles an hour I just don't want to do this I FUCKING DON'T WANT TO LIVE HERE!! I miss my fucking apartment so much. We have until the first but it hurts when I'm there because all I can do is look at it and realize it's all going to be gone. I can't stay here because I can't stand the fact I'm back home, I have no urge to see anyone, do anything, nothing sounds fun, nothing sounds constructive, I just have no urge right now. I can't think of anything to do or anywhere to go. Fuck I am so torn up with hatred and bitterness right now I feel like I was done so wrong. The sad thing is it's a blessing in disguise because I can save up, pay things off, and come back ten times stronger but it just still doesn't feel like it matters. Dark days ahead... I dunno... I want to find an urge to do something I am hungry but I refuse to eat my parent's food but I don't have the urge to go to safeway. I am depleated... I guess I'll fuck around on the internet until Sera get's out of rehearsal...

New car

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 05:45:33 GMT

So I've been talking to a car broker for a while now and I finally picked a car. It's a 2005 Chevy Aveo with 20,000 miles I just got it delivered to me from s(joe just farted on me and now I am crying)acremento. It's actually a really tight car and it get's 35 miles to the gallon so... suck it.

Long time :)

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 14:44:40 GMT

Well I was snooping around livejournal and I decided it's been too long of a time since I've posted one and here I am :)... so let's take a journey, venture on!

As far as my ninja goes... it will be missed. In Febuary I flipped it four times (with me still on it although I got thrown off after like the third flip) and took out a road sign... I'd love to get one sooner or later but I'm not sure if I ever want to do the things I used to do again... I like living lol.

I've been working at microvu and yesterday I put in my two weeks. So I'll be leaving a little after one year. It was cool how butthurt they were makes me feel special. I got a job at Larkfield Autobody. It was a pay drop but it'll pay off in the end and I'm working with cars. I've always wanted to work with cars so... bitchin...

This summer's been great... I've been hanging out with Leslie for a while now... I think a little over a month? It's been nothing but good times and she rocks my world. She's everything to me but she's a friend first and I love that. I got her a sweet birthday present and I can't help but toot my own horn on that one cause I've always been bad at picking out presents... Want a hint? It's not a toaster har har.

Well I'm off to work, then I kinda feel like hitting the gym, don't feel like paying rent but oh well. Life is good right now... nothing I can do from here but take it one day at a time :)

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 01:34:22 GMT

I feel sick and I feel like beating you from one end of the room to another... Deceitful bitch there is no one as horrible as you. It was responsible though.

My NINJA!!!

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 04:03:52 GMT

Yep so there's my new 1993 Kawasaki Ninja ZX-6. I bought it for 400 bucks. My buddy bought it with 18,000 miles on it, put 2,000 miles on it, and layed it down when some guy merged into his lane with they were going over the overpass over by coddingtown mall. He got a very nice settlement from his insurance company (they gave him more than he payed for the motergycle) and decided to give me a deal if I agreed to fix it. He layed it down at a really low speed so I only have to put about 200 dollars in parts in it. And yes... It is a pink and purple bike, I am painting it flat back in January. LOL and frankly for 400 bucks I wouldn't care if someone painted flowers and the barbie logo on it I'd still mob that shit with a smile on my face =D

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 02:39:42 GMT

*WHEW* Taking a break from my room. There's 3 1/2 years of dirty teenage living in this room and I'm paying for it... I'm just throwing shit away by the armfull. Lot's of moldy dishes too lol. Can't let that happen in the new apartment I need to keep it clean for the ladies cause nothing like a clean room to get a lady dirty OW... sorry...

So I get the keys friday... I took the passenger seat and the rear seats out of the jeep to do most of the moving... After that I'll have to wait until Josh and I have a truck to do all the rest of it. I'm just going to keep moving all night long and have all the stuff in the house by mid morning. Then I can just relax on getting my stuff done through saturday and sunday and be able to help josh on his moving. This is so fucking exciting. I'll borrow josh's phone to take pictures of the apartment lol.

You guys should come check the place out.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:52:24 GMT

So I saw my dad for the first time in like 4 years. It was fun. I got to see my grandma, my aunt, my cousin, and a lot of the Williams side. It's amazing how even though I was so far away from him and hardly talking to him all this time how much I am like him. We both act the same and all these weird things about me are shit that he does it's weird. Well four days wasn't enough. It came time for my sister and I to leave and it was hard I didn't want to leave him... My sister started crying pretty bad and I was getting really teary eyed and he told us to leave before he started crying too and we took off. I'm feeling just really out of energy right now. I don't want to be here I want to see more of him. I want to get out of this house so bad I almost just want to go sleep in my car just to be out of this house. I know my family will get much better once I'm no longer around (that's how all family is, you love them once they leave lol) but between the hard good bye with my dad and my cold return home I'm just burnt out. I sign for the lease tomorrow and I think it will be the most exciting thing I will have ever put my name on. Moving begins Saturday :). But all in all an amazing weekend. I got to drive around in a lowered 64 bug with a 1776 engine in it all week, god damnit I love bugs... I found out my dad also owned a bug for years that made me really happy :). I also got a lot of work done on the jeep so it's not so horrible to drive anymore. I'm gonna go watch a movie or something...

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 02:44:24 GMT

Wow... here's what's happened to me this week...

Monday-Fixed the driver's side door...then broke the window
Tuesday-My step mom's father died... my dad is coming to town and I'm going to see him for the first time since I was three months away from being 16... mixed emotions
Wednesday-Got a HUGE promotion, fixed the jeep window, and got an apartment with the sickest of the sick MR. JOSHUA MOYER *does a dance*

Weird week...

This week makes me wanna kill shit

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 19:20:52 GMT

Looks like I'm seeing my dad for the first time in 3 1/2 years tomorrow... we aren't on good terms either.

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 05:44:23 GMT

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet freakndangerous? Windsor High School
2.~What would you do if you had never met chaotictiger? Wouldn't have spent so much time on aim
3.~What do you honestly think of kain42? Chill guy
4.~Would or did dweebette and dweebette go out? Yeah good question numb nuts
5.~Have you ever liked wnderwierdo? She's likeable
6.~If xmikeyfizzlex died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? ...I wanna cum in your hair and spit in your asshole
7.~Would crimson_epic and dweebette make a good couple? noooooooope lol
8.~Describe kidunderscore in 3 words: fun, hat, into midnight movies
9.~Do you think icantmakeaname is hot? in the right eyes
10.~Would xmikeyfizzlex and ediddyfosho make a lovely couple? HAHAHAHA xmikeyfizzlex and eddidyfosho sittin in a tree
11.~What do you think of when you see dweebette? I can finally find the spagetthi noodles and go home
12.~Tell me something humiliating about dweebette: i don't know her that well
13.~Do you know any of twiztidfella's family members? nope josh is more than enough lol
14.~What's dweebette's favorite color? fucked if i know
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is anthraxkilz? i don't know who this is whoops
16.~What would you do if adrenaline311 just professed their undying love for you? lol i'd fucking die of shock then walk him to the nearest psychiatrist
17.~What language does dweebette speak? why the hell are there so many questions about danielle?
18.~Who is badmutherfucker going out with? his hand LOLOL just playin bro
19.~Is i_am_jason a boy or a girl? if you can't figure that one out you should have been swallowed at birth
20.~Would dweebette and adrenaline311 make a good couple? i think they wouldn't be too bad together
21.~Who do you think dweebette would be great with from this list? what the fuck is your obsession with her??
22.~When was the last time you talked to icantmakeaname? loooooooooong fucking time ago
23.~What is wnderwierdo's favorite band? nirvana
24.~Does crimson_epic have any siblings? yeah but i've never met him
25.~Would you ever date twiztidfella? oh fucking hell yes lol
26.~Would you ever date kidunderscore? mmhmm lol
27.~Is dweebette single? i'm noooot sure
28.~What is dweebette's last name? what is your deal with her
29.~What is dweebette's middle name? you'll never get that information out of me your repetitive son of a bitch
30~What is kain42's fantasy? to have a girl talk dirty to him in l33t when they're fucking LOL
31.~Where does i_am_jason live? i know this one...he goes to college iiiiiiiiiiinnnnn Santa Barbara??? I think i failed...
32.~Would you make out with freakndangerous? Nope fucking never have never will ;-P
33.~Are chaotictiger and twiztidfella best friends? LOL nope
34.~Does kidunderscore like dweebette? i'm warning danielle about you...
35.~How did you meet dweebette? school where did you meet her watching her from her bedroom window?
36.~Is icantmakeaname older than you? no
37.~Is ediddyfosho the sexiest person alive? depends on what she'll do for me ;-)

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 11:36:00 GMT

Did you know you could get a DUI for riding your bike drunk???? Interesting...

Just met some cool ass people!! We've met before but either I've been fucked up or they've been fucked up so it was kinda the first time we'd met. Damn it's great to meet good friends.

Love yah Leslie.

I love a good party. Anyone wanna hear great news?? I got over my beer problem. I'm normal again! I also love Monsters.

THE END

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 01:07:32 GMT

I FOUND ANOTHER MOVIE THAT THE GUY THAT PLAYED THE OOMPA LOOMPA IN CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FAMILY PLAYED IN!! I fucking rock :)

I'll give you a hint...

"say hello to my little friend" parody

Peace...

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 06:11:35 GMT

I'm taking off in about an hour for Coo's Bay to do some serious quading. Pray I don't break anything I'll tt all your homies Sunday.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAA

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 01:18:55 GMT

YeS!!!! OWNED!!

http://www.loveit-or-leaveit.com/videos/sportkacat.html

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 08:56:19 GMT

Fuck I hate decisions... All these crossroads all of these FUCKING crossroads!! What is the right decision? Why when nothing is happening in our lives we'd beg for something to happen and then when there is something happening there's way to much? How can you go with the flow when theres a million different currents trying to pull you apart? I mean... I can't play games... I seriously can't I tell everyone that I need something smooth and placid. I'm all about good times, good parties, and good friends and I can't take dramatic people and... this is dramatic... it's extreme ups and downs and I don't know how it's gonna end up but then again that's life... What fun would it be if you know how it's gonna end up. Life is just one big chain reaction full of crossroads and you can only pray you make the right decision but how do you know?? I'm 19 years old I don't need to worry about that. I just wish I could get some hints you know not have to deal with it 100% in my mind. I can't make this decision! I need a sign...

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 08:14:20 GMT

Looks like I'm moving out. Which is a cool thing but it's always like an "Am I doing the right thing... thing" I guess just do it you gotta leave sometime...

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 06:10:24 GMT

Look what I'm picking up monday...

My baby is gonna start teaching me :)

wow...

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 19:55:25 GMT

Wow... I thought when I lost my license I had lost the only pic of me with long hair. Turns out the most awesomeness heather had some stashed away in her deviant art account!! So with no further adoo (fuck spelling) I bring you Junior year brandon. All the weight loss has changed my face a bit...

I'm so happy but the frustration is eating at my skin.

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 20:31:11 GMT

She's the kind of girl you bring home to your mother
She looks good in blue jeans even better under covers
She's a devil in bed between the sheets
Ask her if she's a saint and she'll get down on her knees and pray
Yeah yeah yeah

My god I'm a wreck right now I feel like I'm the guy from 40 days 40 nights and I'm on day 36. I can't stop thinking about you. Oh MY GOD MAKE IT STOP!

This weekend is gonna be insane. The rest of this week is gonna be torture. I can't fucking wait. The way you talk to me, the way you touched me, the way you walk, the way you look at me. Your touch is heaven but wanting it is hell. You are one bitter sweet bitch. I've never felt so confident.

Fuck I'm horny...

fuckersssssss!!!!

Mon, 30 May 2005 05:23:03 GMT

Coheed and Cambria is coming to San Diego (I don't care how far away it is I just went to chico for a concert for christ sakes) and I was checking out the tickets and it's 21 and up!!! Cruel and wicked torture!!!

Wed, 25 May 2005 04:04:08 GMT

LOL LMFAO ROFL God I am so fucking racist LOL!!! I'm sorry if this offended you if so maybe a picture of my nuts and a big FUCK YOU will ease the sting.

On a much sadder note... My beloved cat is missing. He went missing some time between 8:30p.m. and 1:30a.m... My mom is devastated. I hope he's not hurt...

Sat, 21 May 2005 19:42:44 GMT

I can't stop crying. I feel like I'm in the twilight zone and I'm the only one who see's it. I can't believe it. If any of you get the newspaper, read the article on the front page titled something about a car wreck (it's in the living room and I can't go out there I'm a wreck). My sister lives with her boyfriend and his mom in their fucking one bedroom apartment. She has stolen money, dropped out of school, ran away, stolen the car (to the point where my mom has stopped trying to get it back) and just doesn't care. Last night she let her boyfriends mom borrow the car, KNOWING that this woman was high on methanphedamine, and took off for the weekend. The woman took my sisters car and commited suicide with it. She drove into oncoming traffic and killed a woman who was going to go help out at a halfway house for her church. My sister's boyfriends mom broke her arm in the accident and is being held in prison for voluntary man slaughter. The police are trying to get ahold of my sister but she's up in lake county "comforting her boyfriend" because his bitch mom is in prison. There is most likely going to be a lawsuit against my parents because it was their car that was used in the assault. They will probably lose this house if the lawsuit goes through. So my sister doesn't care about anything but Nico (her boyfriend), and my mom is in a panic because of the fact that there is no defense and she's probably going to lose everything. What am I thinking about, this poor woman. Jesus she was going to a HALFWAY HOUSE TO GO DO SOME WORK FOR HER CHURCH! THIS POOR WOMAN DIES BECAUSE SOME CRACKHEAD BITCH CAN'T COPE WITH HER FUCKED UP LIFE!! Am i the ony one who cares?!? I got into a fight with my mom because she says it "wasn't my sisters fault". This fucking druggy didn't have a car and if my sister wouldn't have lended this car to her none of this would have happened. They're trying to get my sister back home and I can't stay here if she does. I don't think i could look at her without hitting her. I don't think anyone in this house is strong enough to pull me off of her either. i truely think i would kill her. In my opinion, she could have stoppd this by using common fucking sense and notlet the woman borrow the car. She's just as bad off as the mother therefore she's a murderer and isnt' worth the dirth on my shoes. If you think otherwise then your are just as sick as my sister and i don't want to know you. I've tried calling up some friends but i don't feel confident in saying anything. I'm so fucking empty right now. I might need a place to sleep tonight. I'll probably just go to a fucking motel or something.

Mon, 16 May 2005 23:17:46 GMT

I've changed over the last few weeks. I've changed. Some of you may not have noticed it, some of you will think I'm an entirely different person. But it's happened. It's for the good. All my life I've been so stressed out over something. Now, nothing major. I'm hanging out with friends. I'm making more friends. I've gotten invited to more parties and trips in the last three weeks than I have in my entire life. From January to today I've done more things with friends than I have in my entire highschool year. You think I'm joking, I'm not. I can also dance now. I'm not saying I dance great, or even good, but tolerable. This year was the first time I even tried to dance. And I can do it, and I'm not afraid. One of the things I've come to realize is people don't look at me like I used to think they did. That was probably the worst fear I've had, was judgement. Now, fuck it you got a problem with me fuck you. But that's what I've realized, 99.9999% of people don't have a problem with me. My mind is very clear. I've gone through some weird shit, done some very weird things, all because I was insecure. I don't feel insecure anymore. Seriously, in these last few weeks, I feel different.

A girl likes me too, that just happened today. I'm on a role!!! A girl!! EEK says I!!

What a day

Mon, 09 May 2005 00:44:47 GMT

Well I got up this morning, a taaaaad bit hung over but everything is good I had a fun night last night :).

Today as you all know (lol if you don't what did you come out of?) was Mother's Day. My mom had already gone to work and I sat and stared at a wall for about a hour because I was about to do something that I had decided I was gonna do. I was going to call my step-mom. The last time I had talked to my step-mom was January 7th, 2002. And believe me, that was not on good terms.

Welp, I called my old house and my dad picked up. I said hi to him and we exchanged a couple of words, and I said very casually and chipper, I called to wish somebody a happy mothers day. I could just feel my dad tense up on the phone. He said ok and handed the phone off to my step mom.

It was tense at first, very tense. But I stayed firm and kept bringing up different topics until we were just chirping along. I had broken the ice and everything was warming up again.

After that I talked to my dad and we talked like we hadn't talked in years, because in truth, she was always in the room when we talked and it was always bland and slightly sad because he kind of wasn't allowed to talk happy to me. And now he was. It was great.

Well my phone died and for some reason his phone kept on giving me the busy signal so I stopped trying and went on with my lazy day when I turned on my phone from charging it I had a voice mail. It was from my dad.

He told me that he knew that it took guts to do that after everything that had happened and how proud he was of me. He also told me how happy and relieved I made him today and how much Gena's mood had changed already. He told me let's go from here and see if we can make things right again and that he loved me.

I can't delete the message lol. I keep listening to it randomly. It was the biggest void in my life without my dad I love the hell out of that guy and now it feels like he's my dad again. It's mothers day today but I'm having trouble focusing on that fact because all of the sudden it feels like father's day lol.

I'm going to call them a couple of times then I'm going to suggest I buy a ticket and go out and see them. I haven't seen my dad since I was 16 years old. We haven't even seen a picture of eachother since then. I have a feeling when I go were both going to break down in the airport. That's just the way me and my dad are we wear our emotions out on our sleeves. Anyone who has ever worked with my can vouch how angry I can get or when something sad happens to me I cry, it's not that I'm a pussy I've delt with more than you think when you look at me I'm a strong person I just can't hold things in. It's how my dad is too it's just the way we are.

Anyways enough dad talk.

So I'm about to sit down with my family and enjoy an awesome dinner. Wish all your mom's a happy Mother's Day for me. I'm out. Enjoy your sunday.